Seasons of Love
Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes
Five hundred twenty-five thousand moments so dear
Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes
How do you measure, measure a year?
In daylights, in sunsets
In midnights, in cups of coffee
In inches, in miles
In laughter, in strife
In five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes
How do you measure a year in the life
How about love?
How about love?
How about love?
Measure in love
Seasons of love
Seasons of love
Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes
Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Journeys to plan
Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes
How do you measure the life
Of a woman or a man?
In truths that she learned
Or in times that he cried
In bridges he burned
Or the way that she died
It's time now to sing out
Tho' the story never ends
Let's celebrate
Remember a year in the life of friends
Remember the love
Remember the love
Remember the love
Measure in love
Measure, measure your life in love
Seasons of love
Seasons of love
written and composed by Jonathon Larson for RENT
{IT HAS BEEN A WHILE}
Three and a half years actually…
Three and a half years ago I decided I needed to take a break from writing and blogging. I was tired and frustrated, and I just needed to be quiet for a bit. Looking back I’m not sure why I was so incredibly frustrated with my life, but I guess that is the beauty of time…everything seems a little simpler from a distance.
There was one source of frustration that was bigger than the others, and that was my unanswered desire for a second baby. I had wanted a second child for a long time and it just wasn’t happening. I became convinced that I would never be able to give David John the sibling that he wanted…that we all wanted. I was so sad and it seemed like everyone else in the whole world was getting pregnant with absolutely no effort at all. I was only getting older and running out of time.
I should have known better than to question God’s plan for my life…Correction: I do know better, but in that unmistakably human way that we all posses I was convinced that I had more control over my life than I actually do. So I spent way too much time feeling sorry for myself and wondering why life was not going the way I had always assumed that it would.
Well, I eventually got pregnant and it was one of the happiest days of my life! I’m not going to go into all the details of my personal sadness and turmoil that longing for a baby caused me. Any woman reading this knows the emotional rollercoaster that our biological clocks can put us through, and it is uniquely different for all of us.
By the fall of 2016 I was pregnant with a little girl and by the spring of 2017 I was holding her in my arms. Madeline Rose came into our lives exactly when we needed her most and she has been shaking up our little family ever since. She is the perfect Yen to her big brother’s Yang; the jolt of energy her father never knew he needed; and the pinkest, bravest, toughest roll model of my life!
Shortly after Maddy was born my life changed in a very big way. I will talk about that some other time. But suffice to say our girl was put on this Earth exactly when we needed her, exactly the way we needed her…a tough and sparkling explosion of hot pink confetti with her entire family’s heart wrapped around her chubby little fingers.
Recently I have spent a lot of time thinking about the miracle of love and the gift of love that we are all given everyday. Love is everywhere when you choose to see it.
I have learned a lot about counting blessings over the course of the past few years, and I know without a doubt that life is much sweeter when we measure it in love. I always wonder if 2016 would have been easier if I had spent more time thinking about all of the love in my life rather than dwelling on its shortcomings…
Once you start looking at the world with love filled glasses, it’s hard to stop. Why would you want to stop!?
xo,
Ki