“Life is amazing. And then it’s awful. And then it’s amazing again. And in between the amazing and the awful it’s ordinary and mundane and routine.
Breathe in the amazing, hold on through the awful, and relax and exhale during the ordinary. That’s just living heartbreaking, soul-healing, amazing, awful, ordinary life. And it’s breathtakingly beautiful.”
My aunt posted this quote on Instagram the other day, and I can't think of a better way to describe the past few months. The very first week of summer was met with the loss of someone that has meant more to me than I could ever put into words. Even now, in November, I am not sure what to say except that I will always miss him and I will always be grateful for his love. I decided to take a little time off from writing as I was finding it hard to find words in the midst of my sadness...sometimes I just need to be quiet. But like the quote says, sometimes life is awful and sometimes it's amazing. After the awful start to the season, we managed to have a pretty amazing finish and spent the last six weeks of the summer in East Hampton NY. It is a real luxury to spend time in a house with a backyard after living in NYC for nearly 13 years. The fresh air, big trees and blue skies were exactly what we needed...
Now, back in the city, we are back to business: working on projects, going to school and preparing for the holiday season, which is suddenly upon us. And while I wouldn't say that my heart has healed from the beginning of the summer, I am finally starting to feel a little more like myself. I may never feel exactly the same again, but that's the thing about life: it is going to continue whether I'm ready or not. Sometimes it's perfect; sometimes not so much. But it is always a beautiful, complicated and moving journey, and for that, I will always be grateful.
xo...
ki